Taking up the cross

It was easy to help an old lady take her walking thingy when she got off the bus. It was even easier to flash a wide smile at this cute lil kid who had the sweetest look and smile whom just popped by beside u in the bus, even when ur feeling super down. But why issit so hard to decide on following God's way or my way??

It really hit me today of how unworthy i was to be loved by God. An old christian song dat I've sung over and over in church. "This is my desire to honour You" it goes. It is true dat it has always been my desire to honour God but even so, i have soo fallen short of it. Wrong decisions, wrong actions, wrong words, wrong thoughts. There's just a never ending wrongness in me.

Are we dat lovable till God sent His only son to die for us? I doubt many of us can say "Im such a great person and the world was a better place with me in it" Well, I find it amazing how God can still love us even when we are so faulty. I believe it's more of his grace and unconditional love rather than God loving us cos we're lovable.

An experience that humbled me soo much to see how great his love is. Yet, I'm still thinking of whether i should do the right thing or follow what i want. Sigh sometimes taking up the cross is not exactly the easiest thing.

Matthew 16:24
Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.

Signin off: Miss u n wanna be wif u

Im fweee!

After exam like no mood to write blog liaw :P Hiaks Guess im more to enjoying the free time i have for now. Well, today's itenary is fuller than a normal skul day! Except its non related to books and papers!! :) Hehe It's gonna be Harbour Town then Freo with lem.

Shop shop shop :)

In skul now tho. Paid my fees and thats one thing off my list for the day! :)

Signin off: Goin to shop!!!!!!

Hot!! Too hot!

Ok this time its not the weather. Remind me next time never ask for extra spicy from a Malaysian restaurant! Mee goreng just now was just over my spicy limit. The whole thing was practically red. Now my throat feels sore.

It's commitment Sunday this week. I knew it was on the last week of this month but i never knew it would come so soon. Always thought it was next week. Anyways, rushed n filled in the 2008 Commitment form. Just praying that I'll be commited to wat I've written. Pretty tough but i believe its something worthwhile.

Okays, I'd better leave it or the day. My calculators and papers are waitin for me :(

Signin off : Bubble tea high~

Back to the younger days

Had a whacky afternoon studying at the dinner table with my cute housemates :P No distractionz from the internet and my bed *proudz* We just kept suing each other throughout our study session :P They were studyin law contract (i think dat's wat its called) and its pretty interesting wat kind of cases they have in ther :) From horses to somethin (bug?? Can't remember) in their canned drink. Lols

Ended the night by taking a walk down memory lane to the playground nearby. Wish i was a kid again.. Those days.. no stress, naive and just pure fun! Hiaks jumpin around with so much braveness, never really knowing wat the word "hurt" means. Well, dat applies until u actually fall and start sniffing :)

As age seem to creep by, the more questions we ask, the more things we understand. Even the simplest things we once knew now become complex and complicated. Even sitting on a slide, I started considering whether it'll stand my weight and whether its actually safe. It's amazing how much faith a child can have. Falling was not an obstacle, it just meant a few streaks of tears and everything will be ok. Even a "I hate u" will only last for a few moments, and very soon they'l love u again.

Thankful dat I'll always be a child to my parents and powerful Papa above! :)

Signin off : A child's faith is wat i want.

Nap?? Yea rite..

One of those days where i took a "nap" and never actually woke up till now . Haha :) Guess my timing wasn't dat far off from my waking up time when I was in St Co. Hiaks Im da type dat studies better in the mornin which is good. Wierd thing was been smellin smoke outside my window just now. Havin block nose now n Im not sure whether its still there. Hopefully its just some bush fire somewher and not someone's house burning.

Doesn't seem lik there's much I can do also.

Goin out with lemon and becoming his sesat navigator later. If he remember to pick up his navigator la :P Osman is flying off today. He finished off his degree and is going back to HK liaw. Not even sure when we will meet again. Gonna miss the Saturdays that four of us spend week after week man!

The inseperable pair :)

Them againz!

Osman and his new car Lol

Have a safe trip Osman!!!

Signin off : Back to bedz for a while